I don’t know if I am well… but I’m trying to be.
I know that in life, when you face your hardest obstacles you find out who you are very quickly. Do you shy away from a hard conversation? Can you keep calm when you made a mistake? What do you crave when you hurt?
For me, my hardest obstacle is Singapore. It always has been this way for me, no matter how familiar I become with the customs, travel routes, currency exchanges, and social culture. I still find it rough against my soul. But here I am, and here I will stay until 2019.
I moved here in June. It was my first move on my own. Though I had help from friends and family to adjust and change, I made the jump from one foreign country to another without touching the United States. From the move, I realized that I have a particular adjustment period:
- I live in shock for a couple of weeks (not believing I made it)
- Overlapping those weeks, I find enjoyment in many superficial and touristy things
- Then I start to compare the country to everything I had see up until then, and sometimes criticizing
- Finally I find some form of peace, usually in a cafe nook off the beaten path, and I begin to enjoy the smallest of things (like a child’s laughter or a starry night in the middle of the city)
This adjustment period is not uncommon. Most travelers experience a similar, if not exact, adjustment period. And yet we are not completely whole.